I am Here.

I have officially crossed over. I guess I am still technically in my "mid-twenties" but really, mid-twenty is 25, right? So now I have crossed that line closer to thirty - WHAT?! I was never going to be thirty, that's SO. OLD!

Early morning devos #together. And #coffee. #lovehim #jesusisourthirdstrand #morning #wakeupright #kaylastimewithjesus

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Anywho. I began thinking about it and so much has happened in my heart over the last year it blows my mind. Let's reflect on that a little bit:

First, had you asked me in my teens what I would predict God would do in my heart, I never in a million years would have predicted that I would have faced an identity crisis for ten years. If you don't remember, I share the story through a lot of my blog posts - one of my very first, in my three part series that addresses the heart of the issue, part 1, part 2 and part 3.

And I absolutely would not have said that He would have to hold my hand to climb out of a pit of fear...

Paved driveways are such fun. ♡ #bennettandparker #brotherfun

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I was never going to be one of those shameful people that lost their house...you can read part one and part two about how it is NOT shameful to lose your home.

#cantsleep #tossandturn #unpack #movinglife #renterissues #renterproblems #thankfulforwhatihave

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Progress. πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ˜‚πŸ˜΄πŸ˜₯πŸ™Œ @kathyschwanke

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I really thought that I would attend the same church my whole entire life, but that is just so totally not realistic and I share about that journey here.

I got three of us! #kayak #motorboat #laborday #schwankeshenanighans

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I've done a lot of healing, I've been able to take Jesus back to some dark times that I blocked Him out of and he has shown me the beauty from ashes that live there, like this story - part one and part two. (I also got to do some photo digging!) I also have had to do some healing from when we had a roommate which I reflect on here.

Happy New Year's Eve and the LAST day of @dressember. I'm ending the year in my very favorite of dresses from @elegantees. When I got this dress I was a little worried that'd I'd never wear it and that it wouldn't fit me well because it is a size medium. Since 2013 I have only fit into large or xlarge and I was a little broken upon receiving it. But I love Elegantees and knowing the hope and freedom it must have given the maker to create it I was determined to put it on and wear it at least once. Once I put it on I INSTANTLY saw myself differently. I felt accepted regardless of my large shoulders and belly pooch. Not elegant words but those two things hinder myself from accepting me. This dress has given me a new confidence and has helped me to see myself a little clearer through my own Maker's eyes. You see, as I am sharing this I am seeing the parallel with this dress and myself. My maker put time, effort and love into shaping and making me and no matter what my "dress" looks like he loves me. I look at myself differently while I wear this dress because of its maker; I need to look at my own self differently because of MY maker. Dressember this year has been a stretch of myself and an incredible confidence boost. In raising awareness I have become more aware of myself and how I've viewed me. Dressember is advocating for those whose dignity has been stripped from them and in the process of my advocacy I have grown in my own sense of dignity. Here's to a new year, fresh beginnings and a new sense of worth. πŸŽ‰πŸ™ŒπŸ˜ #kaylastylesnoonday #31daysofdressingforfreedom #waterdropprismearrings #currentcuff #facetedglassbangle #dressemberday31 #dressember #advocate #selfworth #throughmymakerseyes #maker #dignity

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Despite all of the heavy, loaded posts that I've shared this year, I have been happy to share some more light-hearted, celebratory posts, like the ones about my deliveries - baby one and baby two.

I just feel like what God has done in my life over the course of the last year is so intense, overwhelming. He moved in me in a big way this last year and I can't say enough. I'm looking forward to see what he does this year. Thanks for being along on the journey, friend! <3

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