I so often feel so foolish writing these posts. I feel like I'm preaching to the choir - like - "HELLOOOOOOOOOO!!! If you already know all of this, if it's already in you, why can't you put it into action like a normal person?!"
But, I don't put it into action, I let it sit inside of me and ignore it and just react. I find myself yelling and being more impatient when my house is a mess, I have a PILE of things on my desk to do, and I don't have time for myself.
Time for myself is just not fitting into our daily routine very well. My kids get up early (no time), none of them nap regularly (no time), and my husband gets home early (still no time)! There just isn't time for me to sit quietly and be.
Don't get me wrong, I am REJOICING that my husband finally comes home early and he has weekends off. It's something that I've longed for since we first got married. It's just such a transition to go from being almost always by myself, without him, to having him home daily at 3 o'clock and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALL weekend long. It's wonderful, but I'm still learning how to do it!
I've seen the argument for, "get up before the kids do" and that's great and all, and yes, it would work wonderfully if they got up at 8 o'clock so I would have some time, but they don't. They get up between 6 and 7 daily and in my current (pregnant & tired) state, there's just no way that I can get up any earlier and still function during the day.
I feel guilty for being on the computer (working) and I feel guilty when I'm not. I feel like I'm not giving the kids enough time, but by the time I sit down to work, Andrew is home and with the kids...it's just such a vicious cycle and it EATS away at me.
I am the kind of personality that needs to control and balance and do ALL THE THINGS - I CAN DO ALL THE THINGS, DO YOU HEAR ME!? But really, I'm only human and that super human strength that I like to pretend that I have only goes so far, because it's still "human" strength.
So, let's remember together that it's not by our strength that we can do things. It's not by yelling the loudest that things get done, it's not by being the most forceful or controlling, but by the peace of God (which transcends all understanding...).
Philippians 4:4-7 ESV
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
Matthew 5:9 ESV
Better is the end of a thing than its beginning, and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. Be not quick in your spirit to become angry, for anger lodges in the heart of fools.
Ecclesiastes 7:9 ESV
Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man against whom the Lord counts no iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no deceit. For when I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was dried up as by the heat of summer. I acknowledged my sin to you, and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,” and you forgave the iniquity of my sin.
But, I don't put it into action, I let it sit inside of me and ignore it and just react. I find myself yelling and being more impatient when my house is a mess, I have a PILE of things on my desk to do, and I don't have time for myself.
Time for myself is just not fitting into our daily routine very well. My kids get up early (no time), none of them nap regularly (no time), and my husband gets home early (still no time)! There just isn't time for me to sit quietly and be.
Don't get me wrong, I am REJOICING that my husband finally comes home early and he has weekends off. It's something that I've longed for since we first got married. It's just such a transition to go from being almost always by myself, without him, to having him home daily at 3 o'clock and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALL weekend long. It's wonderful, but I'm still learning how to do it!
I've seen the argument for, "get up before the kids do" and that's great and all, and yes, it would work wonderfully if they got up at 8 o'clock so I would have some time, but they don't. They get up between 6 and 7 daily and in my current (pregnant & tired) state, there's just no way that I can get up any earlier and still function during the day.
I feel guilty for being on the computer (working) and I feel guilty when I'm not. I feel like I'm not giving the kids enough time, but by the time I sit down to work, Andrew is home and with the kids...it's just such a vicious cycle and it EATS away at me.
I am the kind of personality that needs to control and balance and do ALL THE THINGS - I CAN DO ALL THE THINGS, DO YOU HEAR ME!? But really, I'm only human and that super human strength that I like to pretend that I have only goes so far, because it's still "human" strength.
So, let's remember together that it's not by our strength that we can do things. It's not by yelling the loudest that things get done, it's not by being the most forceful or controlling, but by the peace of God (which transcends all understanding...).
5 Verses to remember when you're out of control:
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:4-7 ESV
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
Matthew 5:9 ESV
Better is the end of a thing than its beginning, and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. Be not quick in your spirit to become angry, for anger lodges in the heart of fools.
Ecclesiastes 7:9 ESV
Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man against whom the Lord counts no iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no deceit. For when I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was dried up as by the heat of summer. I acknowledged my sin to you, and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,” and you forgave the iniquity of my sin.
Psalm 32:1-5 ESV
So put away all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander. Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good. As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious, you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.
1 Peter 2:1-5 ESV
I hope that these verses were an encouragement to you. Just in case, I made this fun little printable for you to print and fold up to have in your purse or wallet. Check Instagram to see how to fold it once you've printed it.
Be encouraged, friend!
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